The short comment from my proper delusion.   The eye of heaven perceives all. This page written in Jun, 2005 was revised like this in November 16, 2013.   The writer is Cotosiro, that is, Noguti Hiromasa.
		The last night, gods appeared on my dream suddenly with horrible look. It can see the darkness behind them is fluttering slightly, dyed in the dim red like the fluorescence. And, it had made the gods' dignified appearances stand out into the darkness.
			Though their looks are considerably different from the former looks, they must be the gods who once entrusted me with that prophecy. At any rate, since it also is rare to see a ghost recently to say nothing of god, I were bewildered terribly. But, now I failed in that mission, with what reason did they appear ? By any chance, would it intend to punish me for my failure ? Certainly, since my warning wasn't accepted by people, gods' prophecy materialized one after another.
	However, that mission only was given to me with gods' one way intention. I in those days weren't wanting to put oneself into the situation like that at all. Therefore, it seems the responsibility for my failure should be laid on the gods, not on me, because it is that the gods selected me for the warning in spite of my poor talent, trying to make the people notice that prophecy. It seems it is difficult to say I am to blame. In spite of that, I am being forced to live like a trainee monk for longer times than thirty years. And, because of that, I may die in hunger soon. Furthermore, since the truth the gods gave me is too deep, it seems nobody can understand it.
		"How do you take the consequences ?". The person to want to say like that rather would be me. "Give me the adolescence back!". Suddenly, impulse to say like that gushed from my depths. However, it isn't allowed it carelessly utters the ill-mannered words because they are gods anyhow. I, selecting the words carefully, appealed to the gods to understand my feelings like that with modest behavior. But, are the gods listening to me really ?
	Though I speak to the gods from the heart, they, keeping silence as if it is the stone image of Buddha, don't move even one's eyebrow. Carelessly, I peeped at them with glancing up. Just then, dim red fluorescence behind them flutters hard like the rising flames from hell, increasing brightness suddenly. And, horrible voices like roar of something made the darkness vibrate, tearing the air. "Don't grumble at one's fate ! For that is Gods' will for you ! We can't untie you from the present circumstances at least until the world perceives the truth !".
			Of course, I tried to ask them about the detailed reason at that time. But, they don't give me the time like that. They had disappeared into the darkness before it notices. It seems the gods don't know the word of aging. I am a ordinary person having flesh and blood persistently. At that time, I were fighting with the day after day increasing tiredness, in the middle of the dream. Since it kept on doing the ascetic practices for too long, it invites the vengeful demons to this world as a time unconsciously. It would be because it isn't the practices I carried out in my intent.
		Various evil souls oozed out of me began to invade reality one after another, showing the uncanny appearance. If it leaves that situation as it is, it is certain those demons give this world the horrible harm. "How should I do ?". At that time, I often asked oneself like that about that trouble. But, as for me, there is no power able to erase them. So, I persuaded them to lay the curse on only unreasonable things. "It doesn't punish the person itself though it hates the crime itself and hates the sin.". I gave the vengeful demons the conditions like that.
	And, so far, those conditions are in the situations kept narrowly. The demons secretly pointed their curse to only the social systems often causing the evil. It is that they found out the social evil well, and exposed it under the light of sun, and punished it properly. However, the many demons I bear are beginning to get out of the control like that now. They started to want to directly punish the persons causing the evil. Especially the persons gaining the benefits unsuitably with using the social systems are the good foods for the vengeful demons.
	If it leaves this condition as it is, the demons hating against the unreasonable things, changing to more horrible demons who lay the curse on bad persons, will eat the evil persons. It is because the persons losing the conscience were increased too much. By any chance, would it be the gods wanted the change of demons like that ? Or, would it only be the evidence showing I fell unable to control the demons's behavior ? The gods said nothing as for the thing.
			But, it seems it is certain that the demons like that are born out of the relationship of the phenomenon and the cognition-subject, that is, me. That is, when I perceive the evil through the deed of someone, and when the gods and goddesses allow my perception like that, it is that the vengeful demons appear, punish the evil like that or the bad persons. Would it be my delusion ?
		At any rate, all the persons doing the evil deed aren't noticing the fact that whole of the space-time is God's eyes and ears. And, they also aren't noticing the fact that they itself also are God's eyes and ears and the fact that their minds and behaviors are memorized to the space-time. Furthermore, they aren't noticing the fact that they can't monopolize one's mind and memory. Then, they aren't noticing the fact that everybody can perceive others' mind and memory if it knows the way to see the spiritual world with turning one's consciousness toward the spiritual world.
		Therefore, they satisfy oneself with the deceptive excuse, to forget one's evil deed. But, as a matter of fact, it can say that it isn't making not also others but even oneself consent to that excuse. In other words, their mind is getting the crack because of the deception like that and the truth. The vengeful demons necessarily will tear their future and soul, sneaking into the crack like that.
	Alas, why do they anger me like that ! Why do they expose oneself to the crisis, waking up the vengeful demons like that ? I can't give off my anger. It is because the gods commanded me to shut the anger like that in my heart. But, the anger pushed into my heart, bearing heat, overflows to the spiritual world at last. And, it, becoming the monstrous soul, oozes out to this world. That is the true character of the vengeful demon.
			However, I never be hoping the demons like that appear. And, it also never be the result I intended. It thinks the persons angering me should shoulder the responsibility. By the way, would this be my delusion really ?
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