================================================================= 17-4 The vengeful god has realized the world like that. From The myth of the shade. =================================================================
	This, written in Japanese, was issued in Justnet in 1997 year, was translated to English in 2001 year. And, it, revised, was issued in Nyfty in December 19, 2004. But, since I don't know English well, it doesn't know whether this expression is proper or not. Hiromasa Noguti.
At that time, Mt. Goisigamine and the surrounding area had been struck by the unusual storm. Many twigs broken off out of the branches in the wind are blown away in unbelievable quickness one after another. Hailstones as big as an egg collided against the ground in side blow. A lightning, when tearing the darkness suddenly, hits the big tree, making the roaring resound. Next moment, furious flames blazed out of the big tree cruelly torn. For a instant, suspicious flames flutter to the darkness of night in the weird atmosphere. And, violent wind hit its flames hard. The flames torn off and also the sparks, blown toward the sky of night, burn the trees of the forest one after another. When it looks up at the sky, the flames were dyeing the low dark clouds dim red. All over Mt. Goisigamine, horrible flames were burning. When it suddenly notices, dark clouds with the suspicious whirlpools are nearing to the ground rapidly. For the instant, it could see gleaming silver scales of dragon among the dark clouds. The light looks to be in the refracted condition slightly though it doesn't know why. It seemed the space is bent a little. It must be the space-time got the cracks. Actually, many monstrous beings, poking the face out of the cracks of the space-time, are trying to sneak into this world. It probably seemed someone started to invade the reality, giving off the phantom image, trying to change this world to nothingness. It was because all vanishes since the phantom also vanishes sometime. However, a space safe even now is left. It was the shrine of Kigon sect standing on the hillside of Mt. Goisigamine. Really now, Amano was fighting with Cotosiro-nusi in that shrine at the risk of his life. The chimera-insects nimbly flying, when turning somersault all together, attacked Amano at once. It is the last attack trying to put an end to his life. It seemed to be certain Amano falls into the ruin. But, it's strange. Amano supposed to be terribly tired rise up in the nimble movement. And, it dodged the chimera-insects easily. All the chimera-insects, losing the sight of Amano for the instant, drift in the air for a moment.
			It was a moment Amano expected. He, when taking the bronze mirror out of one's bosom nimbly without losing his opportunity, lifts it high on one's head at once. Next moment, the bronze mirror, roaring violently, made the surrounding air vibrate keenly. Just then, wings of the chimera-insects start to vibrate as well. It must be because the wings resonated with the bronze mirror. The chimera-insects, falling into the condition unable to control the wings for a instant, were drawn to the bronze mirror almost without resistance and sucked in to it easily. To tell the truth, a little while ago, Amano hoped as the last resort the chimera-insects with thinking Amano sank any more, come to be negligent of defence. And, as Amano expected, they had attacked Amano carelessly and were sucked in to the bronze mirror. Apparently, it seemed Amano won.
However, the chimera-insects laid the scarlet eggs in the air, just before they are sucked in to the bronze mirror. And, those eggs hatch at once. It was very colorful silkworms wriggling weirdly. They, while scattering the formic acid and the poisonous fibers out of the mouth, approach Amano gradually. Terrible nasty smell hung in the air rapidly. These must be the chimera insects' horrible weapons. Thereupon, Amano made the bronze mirror vibrate more strongly. The mirror sucks in the silkworms rapidly as Amano expected. It seemed the plot of the Amano went well for the moment. But, the silkworms, changing to the chimera-insect rapidly, laid the scarlet eggs furthermore just before they were sucked in to the mirror. Even if it oppresses them with physical power and shuts up them, it seems to be hopeless it ruins them same as the emotion of hatred. Whenever the bronze mirror sucks the chimera-insects, the silkworms also kept on being born. And, the poison exhaled out of them kept on increasing. Amano, when noticing suddenly, feels the pain like scald in the skin. Then, it also had felt the terrible headache. It seems to be certain Amano is defeated if he can't turn the tables. In spite of that, Amano's behavior was strange. He still keep holding the mirror high upon one's head though it is wriggling in the pain. That sight looked to be too stupid miserable. "Oh, it is better to flounder like that at most.". Cotosiro-nusi, giving Amano the cool look, sneered at him openly with the insulting remark. It was certain he is believing one's win firmly. However, would it be so really ? It can't feel the loser's miserable atmosphere from Amano even now. The pain given by others rather makes the hatred so strong that a person suffers the pain if the person doesn't accept one's fate. And, the hatred like that makes the psychic force of certain person strong.
Amano was accumulating the psychic force like that to one's mind now. The psychic force, while already bearing heat, is watching for the chance of radiating. Certainly, it was ready to overflow out of the surface of the bronze mirror. "Now is the chance !". When Amano lifts the bronze mirror higher upon one's head nimbly, the mirror, roaring in the instant, gave off the dazzling light all around. But, it isn't common light. As a matter of fact, it was the dense swarm of the beetles giving off the golden luster. Their contours are shining in the emerald green. When composing the golden whirlpools, they, making the keen buzz resound, attacked the chimera-insects and the uncanny silkworms. And, the richly colored chimera-insects and silkworms were crunched together with their eggs in a moment.
However, the golden colored beetles, as a matter of fact, are the fire colored beetles who were given the birth by Cotosiro-nusi and sealed in the bronze mirror by Amano. In spite of that, why do they attack Cotosiro-nusi ? That reason was into Amano's skillful plot. It is that Amano, knowing deeply about that reason, used it well. In the certain period of ancient times, Yamato, defeating many tribes and making its members move to the frontier as a time, commanded it to come Yamato's soldier. And, the circumstances like that led such soldiers to the fight almost against the same tribes of kind as them in many cases. Of course, it is the humiliating works tormenting their heart. However, they couldn't resist one's fate like that finally. Amano made such historical inevitability, that is, the memory of history soak into the bronze mirror. The fire colored beetles, when sucked to the bronze mirror, became the golden colored beetles, caught to such historical inevitability. So, they were led to trace the same historical course as the ancient times before noticing. They are becoming the Yamato's soldiers attacking the same families now certainly. And, they already are aiming one's sword even to the god who gave them the birth. Cotosiro-nusi fell into the again betrayed circumstances even from his families as it was so about 1700 years ago. The force the historical image secreted to the bottom of the heart bears is very horrible. As a time, it, giving this world the absolute influence, doesn't allow a person to resist. The gods and goddesses' vengeful heart also, based on the actual history like that, was born persistently. And, for the gods and goddesses, the denial of the history like that is the denial of one's memory, is same as the denial of oneself.
		In that reason, Cotosiro-nusi's fire colored beetles also couldn't escape from the historical inevitability as well. It must be it couldn't change the historical course because it couldn't sublate one's hatred. And, that was the found most serious weakness about Cotosiro-nusi by Amano. When it watches Ctotosiro-nusi and Mohotu-hime carefully, to all appearances, it doesn't seem the last secret ritual were completed. A presentiment of the win caught Amano. When it notices, the shrine already is disappearing as if it is phantom or other. And, Amano was standing under the starry air before noticing. Though the natural cave is seen on the base of ravine, it feels no longer the suspicious air there. When it looks up at the sky of night, the countless stars, giving off pale light, only twinkle cold. Strangely, the many corpses to have been there are also vanishing already. When it notices, there only the vengeful god and also goddess, facing Amano, were standing only in silence.
Amano, holding the iron sword in one's right hand, approached the standing god and goddess in the haggard state. "How shall I kill them ?". Amano, when looking at them near, is caught to violent murderous intent. Since he too strongly clinches one's fist having the iron sword, he felt the arm muscles' twitch a little. However, he suppresses one's excitement narrowly. And, when stopping the walking suddenly, he loosened the fist having tightly the iron sword and said with the low tone. "Now, swear the everlasting obedience to me. If not, I will let you fall to the Hell. How's your answer ?". Hereupon, Cotosiro-nusi flinched a little. And, he implores with the desperate look, saying "Certainly you defeated me, but give me some times to talk with Mihotu-hime please !". Amano sank into thought for a instant. To tell the truth, Amano was feeling the uneasiness for killing this vengeful ghost without giving him the understanding about the defeat. Amano may fall into the same mistake as Yamato to have given the vengeful ghosts the birth if he kills Cotosiro-nusi at once without accepting this entreaty. "Well, you can do as you like ! But, Be finished before the new moon goes away across that mountain !". Amano, when pointing at the top of one mountain with the forefinger, said like that with the highhanded look. In old days, Cotosiro-nusi was defeated in many wars, and killed oneself, sinking one's boat to the Sea of Japan. It is he died with the hatred hard to wipe off. As it thought, at that time, the Take-mikaduti as Yamato's god should have made the effort to find the common ground with Cotosiro-nusi. If he could do like that, it, by any chance, may have not come true Cotosiro-nusi is possessed to so violent hatred. Amano now was plotting to change that hatred to the obedience. When it sees, Cotosiro-nusi and Mihotu-hime are walking toward the cave, getting close each other as if it props each other. It looked to be transient like the phantom, being too haggard. However, How do they make a decision ? Amano, sitting on the ground with the crossed legs, kept waiting them in silence after they went into the cave.
After roughly an hour, Cotosiro-nusi at last came out of the cave together with Mihotu-hime. Amano, controling the impatient mind narrowly, waits the answer in silence. Cotosiro-nusi, when taking one step toward Amano, started to state one's conclusion in the quiet tone. "Now, I hope you will grant my wish before I died.". His voice resounds with the dignified air though it doesn't know why. It can't find the haggard air from him any more. Amano felt the irritation, caught to unpleasant sense for the instant. But, it isn't allowed it is noticed. Amano, hiding that irritation to the bottom of mind, listened to his talk in silence. As it thought, Cotosiro-nusi's wish was the Kami-okuri held for Mihotu-hime. "I hope to let her go back to the gods and goddesses' world rightly before I died" he says. Amano nodded in one's inmost heart.
The annotation ; The Kami-okuri is a kind of the funeral service held for the dead person, the dead animal and the broken tool and so on, in the purpose to return them to the gods and goddesses' world under the thought that they are gods and goddesses originally. In the ancient times, Cotosiro-nusi was the priest praying to Mihotu-hime. However, it falls difficult that Cotosiro-nusi carries out one's task, since the tendency of times changed. And, he, defeated in many wars, sunk oneself to the deep at last. It is that Kami-okuri about Mihotu-hime really was the last task for Cotosiro-nusi. Cotosiro-nusi again entreats, saying "Please make me complete the Kami-okuri". However, Amano hesitated a little. It is because Cotosiro-nusi still is referring to nothing about obedience to Amano. Amano said in the strong tone. "God of Cotosiro ! If you go back to the shrine to confine you in, I will allow your wish. If not, you must fall into the insentient world surely." Hereupon, Cotosiro-nusi, with kneeling down and drooping one's head, shows the intent to obey Amano's demand at last. It was to be the satisfactory situation for Amano. However, Cotosiro-nusi's calm behavior irritates Amano strangely. From where is this calm mind brought ? When Amano thought like that, a suspicious doubt catches him suddenly. In a instant, Cotosiro-nusi understood Amano's heart. And, he started to state one's heart quietly. Certainly, the hatred and bitterness, and so on often is born because everybody follows the logic of this world as far as it has life. However, once a person went away out of this world, he was to be untied from the logic like that. At least there wasn't the necessity to relate to such a logic.
			However, the soul with the hatred was caught to this world's logic, shutting oneself to this world. Cotosiro-nusi now feels it is the shameful and detestable deed. "Rather I were fortunate, tasting this defeat if recollecting my past behavior.". He said like that in the determined manner. It is that that defeat untied him from the hatred and this world's logic. If he didn't taste that defeat, it must have been roaming the labyrinth of fallacy while burning oneself in the flame of the hatred. And, if so, it was impossible that the flame of the hatred is put out until it burns away this world to the ashes. However, he in the reality was defeated in this fight. And, the means of curse also was lost completely. "I kept making the serious mistake for a long time unfortunately.". It seems Cotosiro-nusi, entering the cave, was given the times to think like that. And, he recollected the serious task there. Of course it is the Kami-okuri held for Mihotu-hime. That really was the good fortune he stated.
However, Amano sneered at Cotosiro-nusi in the depths of the heart secretly. The miserable defeat in this time must have given Cotosiro-nusi a great deal of pain. It seemed to be natural he was caught to the negative thought about one's past deed, falling into the mental confusion and found the salvation to Kami-okuri. Surely it must have been impossible he maintains one's mind if it can't find a significance of something out of one's defeat even if it is a distortion. "But, it's a delusion justifying one's defeat anyhow.". Amano despised Cotosiro-nusi secretly. But, it isn't wise to point the delusion like that out. It doesn't seem Cotosiro-nusi comes back to this world as the vengeful ghost because he will die in the contented mood because of the Kami-okuri if it doesn't notice one's delusion. "If so, I'm happy as can be." Amano thought like that. "A promise is a promise. Start Kami-okuri at once !". Amano, saying like that, hurried Cotosiro-nusi. Hereupon, Cotosiro-nusi nods a little. And, he, when turning one's eye to Mihotu-hime, stretched one's hand for her in a smile. Citosiro-nusi already knew the winner always is holding the contempt and ulterior object to the loser. It also can know the thing in the Yamato's ancient poetry expressing Emisi contemptuously. He understood the thing with tasting many defeats. However Amano hides one's mind, Cotosiro-nusi wasn't deceived. But, Amano's mind like that is difficult to suppress, also is living in anyone's mind. Cotosiro-nusi now rather was feeling the heart like that pitiful. It is having nothing of the hatred against the winner any more. Cotosiro-nusi was regarding Mihotu-hime only in silence.
However, tears trickle down his cheeks one after another though it doesn't know why. When it suddenly notices, Mihotu-hime also was shedding tears. It was to have been forgetting a tear, but, their mind attached to something of this world torments them strangely. As it thought, would it be the mind to persist to life hard to give up ? Or else, would it be the regret of the leaving this world ? Anyhow, they continued to shed the tears while regarding each other only in silence. Just then, in the northeastern sky of night, big light appears suddenly, making one corner of the heavens bright. When it sees, it is a very large falling star. It passed over Mt. Goisigamine in the terrific speed while strewing the dust of light to the starry air. And, it, when flying away across the ridge line rapidly, disappeared into the southwestern darkness in a moment. It seems it falls to somewhere of Miho-nho-seki(place name) probably. (Originally Cotosiro-nusi and Mihotu-hime are worshiped at the Miho-shrine built to Miho-nho-seki.). It seemed it is the holy sign saying these god and goddess are untied from one's curse.
However, for Amano, it is a very commonplace falling star. "Enough of their poor tragedy !". Amano is caught to inexpressible irritation when watching them sobbing. He, when drawing the double-edged iron sword out of his waistband nimbly, approached them slowly. Now that things have come to this pass, there is nothing to do at Cotosiro-nusi. Cotosiro-nusi, making a resolve, sent the words of going away out of this world to Mihotu-hime. Mihotu-hime, already shutting her eyes, is joining her hands in prayer admirably. It was the sight drawing tears from a person. Not until she was defeated by Amano, it could know the peace of mind in this world narrowly. And,her time in this world is about to be finished soon now. Really would what memories and what thinking be passing through her mind ? It can feel the suspicious and weird air no longer from her. It feels only her heart to hope to make oneself pure. It was to make the murderous intent weaken probably if it looks at her sight like that and also is a common person. However, Amano swings downward the iron sword heartlessly, aiming to Mihotu-hime. She was torn of the throat cruelly at once. In that moment, blood out of her is scattered like spray. Mihotu-hime's slim body bent like a whip for a instant, and fell down on the ground slowly as if it is slow motion. Cotosiro-nusi was to be ready for the death of Mihotu-hime. However, terrible sadness tears his heart. In spite of oneself, he has called the name of Mihotu-hime. But, she can answer no longer. Cotosiro-nusi, running up to Mihotu-hime before noticing, held her tight with his arms.
		Blood dripping still out of her dyes his sleeves red plaintively. He, hugging her tightly, didn't try to move from there at all. When it sees, his tears drip on his sleeves dyed with the blood one after another. And, it, making the thin pink specks for a moment, faded out into the blood of sleeves soon. That sight seems to be showing Cotosiro-nusi's true mind plainly. He, while narrowly enduring the increasingly gathering sadness, took Mihotu-hime up in his arms tenderly and stood up. It has to complete the Kami-okuri for Mihotu-hime. He carried her by the altar slowly and laid her on there carefully. His mind not hoping to leave the altar torments him insistently. However, the circumstances didn't allow he is there. Cotosiro-nusi, when coming to oneself narrowly, left the altar at last, shutting his lips tightly.
 
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