Short-comments from my proper delusions. Revised edition 2 by extraction.
	The following comments, extracted from the comments written in Japanese at 1998 year, were issued from Justnet. And, this time, it, translated to English, was issued from Nifty. January, 2004. This was rewritten a little in April 21, 2004 and in April, 2005.
	26th July, 1998. The gods and goddesses appeared here in the last night. And, they said "The human heart is formed from the several stratum". But, what meaning is it ? My heart was shaken terribly because of their unexpected utterance. So, I can't ask about the thing strangely. I only were regarding them in silence. Just then, they, when regarding me, asked, saying "What do you see at each moment in your life how ?". It probably seems it is the meaning saying that the mental condition in that time decides each momentary recognition. I understood like that at that time. Then, the gods and goddesses say furthermore "The consciousness always is in some stratum of mind, and shifts corresponding to the circumstances". It must be the meaning saying that only the stratum making consciousness stay gets the perception. If so, there is the possibility it gets the different perception if the consciousness is in the other stratum. In spite of that, it was that the many of people, not noticing the thing, think such temporary momentary perception to be only one truth. Are the senses of hatred and the jealousy and the grudge born from where ? Then, does the selfish mind to want the narrow minded justness come from where ? The gods and goddesses must have been aware of my worry and awareness of the crisis. They gave me the several suggestion about the thing.
		The gods and goddesses say the stratum of each mind corresponds to the stratum of the brain, and to the axis of time, that is, evolution. And, they said furthermore the consciousness is in the material mind first, shifts to the mind of organism soon, and next shifts to the mind of reptile from the mind of invertebrate, furthermore shifts to the mind of mammals from the mind of reptile, and, finally shifts to the human mind, reaches to the mind of gods through human mind. "The spiritual awakening is nothing else but to be that the process like that is understood and practiced continuously intentionally.". They told me like that in the solemn demeanor.
	However, would it be really so ? At least in this world, the mind to manipulate a person is the biological impulse caused by the brain of the lower layer. The upper brain is often obstructed of the perception as it is said that poverty and hunger dull the brain. And, it seems God's seat in brain is in the condition like that especially. Even if it says a person always feels the hunger and pain for something in every meaning, it never be exaggeration. The holy mind of the gods and goddesses sinks to the ocean of the heart easily as if it is the earthen boat. To survive in this world, the upper brain must need to become forgetful surely. If not, why would we be able to eat the creatures, killing it ? And, why would we be able to take the benefits of other persons, deceiving or threatening them ? I asked the gods and goddesses like that at once. However, they only say " Be cognition-person !". But, what would it be meaning ? I, trying to ask about the thing, turned my eyes to them again. However, the sight of gods and goddesses can't be seen any more. When noticing, I, left to the darkness alone, woke up because of the sense of loneliness.
	20th June, 1998. In the last midnight, a very small person appeared on my dream though it doesn't know why. Apparently, it is the kind of the elf or sprites. But, since it gives off the feeling of hatred to me, by any chance, it may be the vengeful ghost or the monstrous. However, I can't distinguish what kind of hatred it is. So, I made my consciousness concentrate to that hatred. Just then, it seems the uncanny voice is heard slightly. When I make the ears more sensitive, That dwarf was saying "your delusion is unpleasant".
	However, I can't understand that meaning at all. I asked to him the reason why it is unpleasant. But, there is no answer. It only gives off the feeling of hatred to me and, it tried to make me fall into the ruin with the horrible curse. Perhaps, it must be that my delusion has exposed the dwarf's secret. So, it seems he appeared, trying to shut up me. However, my delusion is the truth at the possibility world, is the warning given for the real world. There is no reason I'm criticized. When my anger is given off to the space-time for a moment, it has shot the dwarf with the horrible power, becoming the thunder at once.
	"We are the devil giving the unreasonable things the curse". Horrible voice suddenly made the space-time vibrate. Whose voice would it be ? However, since I woke up at once, coming to oneself at that time, it couldn't know the answer. Therefore, it isn't clear at all whether the dwarf died or survived.
	31st July, 1998. Now is three o'clock in the morning. I woke up suddenly. It is because the unacceptable feeling invaded into my mind and tried to form the certain vision. A evil presentiment of something makes my heart wavy.
		However, it couldn't know of it what kind of vision though it may be because I woke up at once. I warn the devil hating me. You must not try to manipulate me, with making my mind weak. If not, it will carry the horrible harm to you, calling the unexpected volition of someone. Oh my God! my mind again is about to fall into the unusual state. By when can I get out of such delusion how ? There is the proverb of "A sound mind in a sound body". Therefore, the lack of sleeping isn't good. So, I think to sleep at once.
	3rd August, 1998. In the last night, the devil, coming here, said with the tender voice "You are tired, won't you?". Since I'm very obedient, I answered, saying "yes" before noticing. So, it seems I again have died a little. The tiredness makes the aging hasten. It would be because the mental tiredness makes the genes of death active. It is said worry often causes illness. And, the aging also is closely related to the mental condition. It is that the death also approaches when the mind withers. My mind had started to wither at that time. There was the devil quite near me at that time surely. In spite of that, what a careless utterance it is ! There isn't the possibility the careful devil overlooks such an utterance. He, whispering spitefully with that advantage at once, said "you can leave nothing in this world". And, he indicated the uncanny darkness with his forefinger, saying furthermore "no one can find out even the traces of your existence". When it sees, a strange dark tunnel that I once saw several times is continuing in the gentle curved line until across the endlessness. And, the devils whispered from behind me, saying "you must walk this tunnel everlastingly".
	Since I didn't attach my mind to the space-time, would it be as the punishment or other of the thing ? Or, would it be as the devil's whim ? Anyhow, it seemed the devil's labyrinth continues endlessly and everlastingly. Wouldn't there be even the few slits into the gray clouds covering all ground in the low sky ? Where would the clean blue sky be ? When it notices, a melody of skaters waltz is heard, flowing out of somewhere. And, the memories in my infancy appeared and disappeared into my mind one after another as if it is the endless film.
Would I have died any more ?
 
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