Short-comments from my proper delusions. Revised edition The delusion 2 by extraction.					To old edition.
	The following comments, extracted from the comments put in Justnet in Japanese in 1998 and translated into English, were put in Nifty in January, 2004. And this time, the English edition was reviced like this in 13th Novenver, 2013.
	26th July, 1998. The gods and goddesses appeared here last night, and said "The human heart is composed of the several stratum". However, what would it mean ? I listened to them in silence though I was bewildered a little. Just then, they, regarding me, started to speak. "You would have seen various things, at each moment in your life, and it would have been caught to various things. Whether the recognition you got from the experience like that evolves or degenerates is decided, corresponding to the layer your consciousness gets in. In other words, it is the consciousness often moves to other layer from one layer because of the will or desire to be influenced by the mental condition and the environment. Therefore, if the consciousness moved to other layer, a person always does recognition different from the former recognition. However, a person tends to think the temporary recognition like that is only one truth. That's too bad for human being and for us. Don't make us be disappointed!".
		The gods and goddesses must have known the thing I'm bothering of. They gave me some knowledge about why a person gets caught easily to the hatred, jealousy, malice, and the narrow justice. The gods and goddesses said as follows. Each stratum composing the mind corresponds to the position of time axis the said mind possesses at certain time, and also to the progress of the brain. And, the mind like that, while increasing the stratum of the mind as time goes on, keeps on advancing to an unicellular animal's mind, furthermore to a higher animal's mind and to the mind of a human being, and reaches the mind of god finally if it advances smoothly. And, the words of spiritual awakening mean nothing else but to understand the thing and control one's behavior.
	However, would it be really so ? I put my head on one side a little. At least in this world, the mind to manipulate a person is the biological impulse caused by the brain of the lower layer. As it is said that poverty and hunger dull the brain, the upper brain is often obstructed of the exact perception. Or, it may be better to say that it always is so. And, especially the seat for god in brain falls into the situation like that easily. In other words, it is that we are the existence having to feel hunger and pain in various meaning. The holy mind of gods and goddesses sinks into ocean of the heart easily. To survive, a person often needs the situation that the upper brain sleeps, surely. If not, why would we be able to eat the creatures, killing them ? And, why would we be able to exploit the wealth from other persons, deceiving or threatening them ? Tentatively I contradicted like that the gods and goddesses. However, they say " Be the recognition person !" and only regard me. What on earth do they mean? Although I turned my eyes to them again, trying to ask about the thing, they already weren't there as if it has been phantom.
	20th June, 1998. Late last night, one small person appeared on my dream. Although apparently he is fairy, in reality, it seems that he is a dwarf. He while giving off the feelings of hatred to me, said "Your delusion is unpardonable.". However, since I never had done the delusion, I don't know what does he mean. So, I asked him "what of mine is unpardonable?".
	But, there is no answer. He gave off the silent curse full of the hatred to me, trying to get me into the ruin. Perhaps, it would be the unfounded suspicion caused against me. Or else, would it be because my vision of foreseen things exposed his secret by chance? So, it may be that he felt unpardonable about the thing. Needless to say, the reason I am blamed is nowhere! "Does he pick a fight with me?" I suddenly got caught to the strong anger. And, next moment my anger was given off, a thunderbolt like a dragon tore the space-time, attacked him suddenly. "I'm the demon putting the curse on the unreasonable things!". For a moment, horrific voice saying so resounded upon the dwarf. However, whose would that voice be? Although I tried to confirm it at once, I had waked up before doing so. And, it also isn't clear whether the dwarf in question died or not.
		31st July, 1998. I suddenly waked up midnight. When it sees the watch, it is about to indicate three o'clock. I feel bad at all. It is because I was obliged to wake up with the cause the vision hard to accept is about to be dream. So, it can't wipe an uneasiness unclear on the reason. It is because I couldn't remember what vision is about to be dream. Maybe, it would be I forgot it because of my having waked suddenly. I tell the devil putting the curse on me. You shouldn't try to manipulate me with leading my mind to be weak. If not, it would bring the horrible harm to you with causing my unknown power. Oh my god! I again had fallen into the dangerous mental state. By any chance, would it be impossible everlastingly to get out of the delusion like this ?
	3rd August, 1998. Last night, one demon visited me, and told me "Oh, you are exhausted, won't you?" with the tender voice. Since I'm very obedient, I had answered "Yes", before noticing. However, what a careless person I am! In this, it seems that I again died. The tiredness makes the aging accelerate. It would be that the tiredness of the mind makes the gene of death active. It is said that the disease is caused by the bad mental state. If so, it also seems that the death creeps because of the bad mental state frequently. My mind had withered. Of course, it is natural that the demon notices this mental state of mine. He whispered to me "I, to this world will not leave any memory of you, even the trace of you inscribed into this world." with the spiteful tone.
�@	When it sees suddenly, it can see a strange dark tunnel it saw in one old day continues endlessly in the space unable to see the horizon. "You have to walk in that tunnel". The demon whispered like that to me from behind me. Would it be the punishment of my not having gotten attached to space-time? If not, would it be the demon's whim? Anyhow, it seems that the demon's labyrinth continues endlessly. Whouldn't there be even a few slits into the low gray clouds hiding the heavens? Where on earth would the blue sky be? When it notices suddenly, a melody of the Skaters Waltz is heard. And, memories of infancy crossed my mind as if it is the endless film, and faded out.
Would I have died any more ?
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