"Behind this world."  1. The sudden letter.  This first was written in Japanese language in 2004 year. And it was revised in December, 2012. So, this time, it was translated into English again with a little detailed contents than Japanese edition. January 27, 2013. Noguti Hiromasa.						2. Katsuo in kid ages.
	August 10, 1999: Today I decided to write about my friend, Kastuo. It is because the strange letter from him makes me think about him somehow. However, I still can't know clear what his message means. First, I think to consider what he was thinking until now while recalling his history. About two years ago, I received the sudden letter from Katsuo who was the friend ever since the highschool age. But since there had been no contact with him at all until I receive this letter ever since he refused my telephone call and e-mail, it was unexpected letter for me really. "Why did he send me this letter suddenly now?" I got bewildered a little at that time. To tell the truth, he had entered certain mental hospital at Sapporo City for about three years, getting mental illness about four years ago. And now unfortunately, he isn't in this world anymore. About one year ago he died, falling down suddenly at the mental hospital. Strangely, the cause of his death isn't so clear. I heard considerably after that it finally was concluded the cause would be the heart failure caused because of his getting stimulated hard with the thunder. However, when thinking about that now, I can't think like that somehow. It was because I started to feel the letter in question is talking the truth about certain secret. I'm now guessing there is the other deeper reason in the death of him. I returned to Sapporo, resigning from the company in Tokyo several years ago. So my house now is in Ebestu City which neighbours the northeast of Sapporo City. So it can arrive at the hospital Katsuo is in if it drives the car for an hour. I, since sometime hearing the rumor Katsuo is in the hospital, had visited the hospital several times. However, the person in charge always says Katsuo refused to see you. So I couldn't meet Katsuo after all. But when one day, I visited the hospital, I happened to meet his mother there. When I states greeting, she suddenly says "I have to hear about the condition of Katsuo from the doctor today". When I looks at her, she said "Would you please meet the doctor with me?" with the uneasy look. Apparently, it seems that she is afraid to hear by herself. So, I heard the doctor's opinion with her. Needless to say, I at that time didn't even imagine the thing I will start to write like this about Katsuo.
			According to the doctor, Katsuo's illness is the schizophrenia carrying an active behavior caused by mental factors of something. Then the condition like the psychotic depression is seen as a time. Although at the moment his judgement on the daily life seems to be almost proper, he seems to be possessed to a strange delusion, and be in the very tense mental condition. "Well, he isn't the condition so bad that you can't meet him. But it would be better to not meet him, now that he refuses to meet you, because this is mental illness". The doctor said like that with the regrettable look in the end of the talk. And, as I guessed, Katsuo didn't try to meet anyone till he died. In spite of that, why did he think to send me the letter immediately before he will die? Recently I started to think there may be a secret message of something into that letter as I read the letter and thinks about this question. But, at the same time I feel it is getting confused by that uncanny letter. Somehow it is a weird sense. "I will stop reading this letter". Everytime it is caught to the strange feeling, I thought like that. However this problem doesn't get finished so easy. I couldn't stop reading the letter though it doesn't know why.
	To tell the truth, I saw the dream of Katsuo the former night in the day it will receive the letter in question. When I'm going out of the house for the work, Katsuo is standing in front of my house with the appearance of young age. He was staring at me in silence. "Oh, Katsuo, what's wrong?". I asked him like that in spite of oneself. However, he says nothing. When I, feeling strange a little, tried to approach him, he suddenly disappeared. And I was untied out of the strange dream. However in spite of the dream pretty short, its impression is left in my heart with clear images. I got bewildered with its strange impression a little though it doesn't know why. But since I was busy terrible in the work that day, I concentrated on the work at once without thinking about the dream deeply. However when returning home finishing the work, I found there is one letter, looking at the letter box. When I take it out and check the sender, It is the letter Katsuo sent. I was caught to the strange feeling a little though it doesn't know why. Somehow I feel a foreboding that Katsuo may have met a trouble of something. Although I thought it is unfounded uneasiness, I telephoned the hospital for the moment and asked about Katsuo's condition. However the person in charge says "there's nothing particular". But his answer doesn't satisfy me somehow. It is the mood to want to hear more. However if I ask him about Katsuo persistently, he may think an unfounded suspicion against me. I have hung up the receiver at once, saying "Okay, thanks". "Well, it would be that his condition was improved probably because it is that he sent me the letter". I, thinking like that with following my expectancy for the moment, pushed the strange uneasiness into the bottom of the heart after all. However how are the contents of the letter? The thing is on my mind somehow. I cut the letter open at once. However the handwriting is rough as if it wrote a scribble. And also the relation among the sentences is so vague. It seems that it isn't so easy to read the letter. In this, it is hard to think his condition is being improved. "Would it be that the madness made him write this letter?". I, turning my eyes away from the letter when getting caught to the thought like that, stared at the corner of the desk with the anxious mood. It somehow feels that it is watching the situation his mind collapses. I, when returning the letter into the envelope, have put it on the desk with the slightly trembling hand. However it seems that the fact that he sent me this letter is weighty whether he is in bad condition or not. It may be that this letter is evidence there still is the friendship with me in his heart. Would he have wanted to tell me something really? Or, would it be his memory in the period he still was normal have made him write this letter? "Anyhow I have to read this". I, when thinking like that, started to read the letter again. Needless to say, I was obliged to keep my patience for long, to read the shaky sentences. And, for the moment, I narrowly could know what he wrote. It shows the contents of the letter in question next.
	"I found out certain secret about Satan, considerably before. But since the people in this hospital all are the materialist, they aren't believing my talk. Although I don't know clearly, there also seems to be the followers of Satan. So, I was hesitating to meet you for long. To tell the truth, the reason why I didn't send you a letter and meet you was because there is the circumstance like this. The followers of Satan are keeping a watch on me for long and even now. So, I didn't want to involve you in this problem of mine. However, the situation is imminent considerably now. So, I couldn't but depend on you. I will die, soon. I want at least you to understand the problem I found out. And please rescue the world. I, thinking like that, sent you this letter.
	The god created the world, wanting the cognition of whole which includes one's self. In other words, The god as cognition-subject needed object for cognition. But the created world included the unexpected existence. It is because the god as rightful existence, to know oneself, needed the non rightful existence opposite from oneself. So, Satan was born. Therefore, the world came to have the movement which is based on the contradiction of the god and Satan. We can find out its evidence into the universe and also our mind. Needless to say, the god realized at once this problem occurred. But the god didn't choose the erasing the world. The world's disappearing means that the god's cognition is lost. It is because the god with the consciousness already had become the existence unable to exist if the world as the "object" doesn't exist. Thereupon, the god tried to defeat Satan, with raising the ideals for justice and love, for peace, and peace of mind. And it is that the god tried to entrust this ideal to the living things. However, once the world appeared, the god couldn't create the living things if ignoring the principle of the universe even if it is the Creator. In that reason, the confrontation between the god and Satan invaded even into the living things. The thing can be found at once if it sees one living thing kills and eats the other living thing for his descendents. In other words, the living things fought each other with following one's worldly desire. So, it came to be difficulty that the god moves the world with only its will. However, it doesn't mean the god was defeated. It is because the living things still are in this world, and are inheriting narrowly the ideal the god gave. But, it is certain the situation of the world is far from the god's ideal. The world is the place of the endless fight between the god and Satan, and is the place filled by contradictory things. And, to all appearances, this fight looked to not finish till the end of the world.
			Satan is the will to want the cruel behavior and destruction and nothingness persistently. But if Satan doesn't exist, it doesn't follow that the world exists. Thereupon, the god gave the living things soul. It never be exaggeration even if it says that soul the god gave them is the god itself. Then, since a soul we have is mental existence, not material existence, it didn't seem to be influenced by the material principle of this world. And if so, the god's ideal was supposed to materialize at least at the heart. However, Satan is cunning to the bitter end. Satan led the material principle of the universe to influence even soul the god gave the living things. It is because the expression of a soul doesn't materialize at least in this world if it doesn't use the material existence. So, the people, caught to the worldly desires, distorted the god's ideal or even trampled it underfoot in public. Furthermore the people killed the people, with pretending the god's ideal as a time. It was because Satan tempts the people to do so. So, the people came to be apt to forget the work to do the god gave them.
	The doctor's work is the curing disease, together with love. The prosecution's and the police's work is the not allowing the social evils. But, it is hard to assert that they always are doing like that. And, it also can say the same things on other people as well. Really it is that it is the Satan's trap so dangerous that politicians, scholars, and common people, and even clergy get tempted, in spite of oneself. If the people forget the ideal the god gave them, the world is supposed to get confused and fall into nothingness. And this must be Satan's final purpose surely. So, Satan, to finish doing one's intrigue completely, influenced especially strongly the persons who is in the socially important position, using the principle of this world. Therefore, it is that the god demanded they have the excellent insight necessary to confront Satan. But unfortunately the people believing in the god came to be a few now. Certainly the god created us. However, it never be exaggeration, even if it says that we are the god itself. And Satan was born as the existence opposite from us. In other words, Satan is the existence necessary to make us realize that we are the rightful existence. In that reason, we have to fight with Satan and frustrate Satan's intrigue with the ideal the god gave us. The ignoring Satan's intrigue is nothing else but to be the denial of one's existence, and the denial of the god. I now is being imprisoned in this hospital because of Satan's intrigue. But I have to tell the people about Satan's intrigue. So, I sent you this letter to trust you with this work of mine. If the person aware of the thing is nowhere, the world would be swallowed to nothingness sometime. Please rescue this world.
	However, would you also think this is the madman's silly talk? But listen to me! Our consciousness is the window necessary for the god's watching the world. And the god is the spiritual world itself. In other words, the god opens the window called consciousness toward this world, trying to get one's realization. It is our consciousness can be connected with the spiritual world anytime. So, I can watch your mind through the spiritual world. Although I don't know why, it became possible to do so from certain time. It is I can open the window called consciousness, toward not only the material world but also the spiritual world. So, I could know Satan's intrigue. It often is said that the god know all. But many of the people don't interpret this literally, regarding this as the figure of speech. However, this is the truth really. Our behaviors all are inscribed to the space-time in detail. You also would be able to understand the thing sometime. I already know you become so. There still are many things I want to talk. But Satan may take notice of this letter if I contact you for too long. This is problem. I intend to contact you again if it is possible. Goodby.
	However, as Katsuo told me in the letter, I certainly had regarded this letter as madman's silly talk. In the university period, Katsuo once had stated "Satan is obstructing my perceiving". When I stare at him in spite of oneself, he says "by any chance, it may be Satan went into my brain" with serious look. That is too unusual utterance. Although I thought it would be as a joke, I got frightened, feeling weird for a moment. But, he can't be abnormal. "Is it so? Then?". I tentatively asked him like that. Then, he says "Er, I get very tired in that, because it comes hard to think.". I at that time couldn't forget the weird atmosphere he gave off. Although he didn't refer to the thing ever since, when it now thinks about that utterance, it seems that it wasn't as a joke probably. And apparently the contents of this letter also seem to be the reflection of his delusion brought by the madness. By any chance, it may be that the bud of this madness was in his heart ever since he was the student. I felt the inexpressible pain hard to suffer in my heart. However, should I write the answer for him? I sank into the thought about the thing for a little while. It is because it felt it would be meaningless. But he is one of a few friends, even if this letter was written by the madness. As it thought before, it can't but send him the reply. I sent him the reply after all.
			However, there is no contact from him ever since, as I guessed before. So, I telephoned the hospital, and asked the doctor about his condition. But the doctor, with heavy tone, says "it is hard to say it is good". According to the doctor, the medicine doesn't work so. It seems to be because the cause of the illness is the mental factors probably. Anyhow it was certain his illness became worse than before. "As it thought before, it should think that the madness led him to write that letter". Ever since I thought so, I, forgetting about the letter in question, didn't even recall there was the letter, until he died like that.
2. Katsuo in kid ages.  3. The strange turn of fate.  4. Katuo's ability.  5. Lifework.  6. The wavering soul.  7. Satan's intrigue.  8. The mystery about recognition.
 
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	背後の世界 その８　認識というもののミステリー March 14, 2004. By Cotosiro.
	克夫が亡くなってから、既に五年が経過をしている。そして、今のところ、世界は彼の予言の通り、混沌とした状況へと 向かいつつある。言葉は真実を語らず、正義や善などを装う世俗的な欲望が経済的な力、そして、物理的な力で世界を席巻している。 十九世紀から二十世紀にかけて、世界は曲がりなりにも、整合性のある精神を目指して前進をして来たように思われる。 だが、今や、その精神は忘れられ、ただのお題目へと堕落をしつつある。その事は文明社会で貧困や無知や暴力、そして、 飢餓までが蔓延し始めた事からも窺える。 また、魂を癒すべき宗教は人の世俗的な欲望を神の意思とするような偏狭なる信念に犯されつつある。 更に偏狭なる信念は人々に神の真意を忘れさせ、殺し合いの場へと誘っている。宗教法人の名を借りた金儲けも全く後を絶たない。 世界とその世界を見るべき魂は物欲、金欲などに支配をされて益々、物質的と成ってしまった。 いくら、何者かが精緻な論理を組み立てて、弁解をしたとしても、事実はまさしく雄弁である。 彼の述べる天動説は身内の間でしか流行らぬだろう。その為に、その様な何者かは力でその論理を押し通すのである。 だが、神はこの様な暴挙を許さぬだろう。あるいは、その様な神の罰は生物学上の必然、そして、歴史の必然として下される、 と言った方が良いのかも知れない。人間は現在に至るまで、自然を征服する事に力を注いだ。 だが、自然を収奪し尽くした今、我々は自らの欲望を制御する術を身につけなくては為らないだろう。 さもなくば、我々の現実世界は崩壊の憂き目を見るかも知れない。
			本来、生物の持つ欲望は生命を育む為に存在している。しかし、今、それらの欲望は目的を忘れて、一人歩きをしているらしい。 無論、それは現代に限った事ではないのかも知れない。 だが、今、それは一部の人間の過ちではなく、地球規模の過ちにまで拡大している。自身の飽くなき欲望を実現し続けた結果が果たして、 何をもたらすのか？文明社会において、多くの人々、特に資産家達はほとんど他人に頼り切り、自らの欲望を満たすので、 その様な疑問すら、忘れてしまった。いや、むしろ、自分の意識から排除してしまった、と言うべきである。 また、富裕層の社会福祉への貢献も当人の見識を曇らせ、良心を麻痺させるので、問題である。 その様な行為は精神の退化と自己満足しかもたらさない。すべき事は他にある。だが、その事に気付く者は少ないのである。
	遙か昔、富の収奪は自然に対して行われたが、共同体が発達し、文明社会が産まれるに連れ、その収奪の矛先は他の共同体、 そして、同胞へと向けられ始める。共同体、特に、文明社会が存在する以上、これは避けられぬ現象である。 だが、その度合いには、自然に対する収奪と同様に、適正値がある。その収奪が適正値を超える時、その共同体は疲弊して、衰退し、 場合によっては滅ぶのである。あるいは、世界は戦争へと駆り立てられて、恐ろしい混乱へと陥るのである。 だが、今、その様な収奪は適正値を超え始めているように思われる。素直に世界を観察すれば、その事はすぐに分かるだろう。 克夫はかつて、ホームページで、世界は汚物に覆われる、と警告したが、まさに今、その様な状況と成ってしまった。 彼は以前、社会は生物そのものである、とも言っていた。そして、それは比喩ではない、とも言っている。社会には、脳があり、 内蔵があり、骨格や筋肉があり、皮膚がある。また、免疫機能なども備えている。 そして、その様な社会の健康は人間の個体と同じように、各機能のバランスと血液などの円滑な流れで成り立っている。 克夫はかつて、その様に語っていた。これは確かな真実であるように思われる。たとえば、今、社会の皮膚は栄養不良で疲弊している。 そして、肝臓は栄養過多で機能不全に陥っている。緊急手術は取りあえず成功したらしいが、栄養過多の問題は残されている。 このまま、時が経過をすれば、癌化すらしかねぬ状況である。
	もっとも、皮膚の場合は、酷使の為に死んだなら、皮膚移植でまかなう手も考えられる。だが、普通の共同体では、 免疫反応の為に大規模に行う事は不可能だろう。従って、この様な状況を考えるなら、肝臓に溜め込まれる栄養は速やかに皮膚に 回されねば為らない。医者、特に東洋医学の医者ならば、その様な診断を下すだろう。 だが、今、社会の脳は逆の事をしようとしている。旨く行けば良いのだが、自然の摂理に反する事は確かである。 さんざん飲み食いをした結果、垂れ流された社会のウンコは、この様な事で果たして押し込める事が出来るのだろうか？ 克夫の言う社会的汚物があふれ続けぬよう、願うしかない。 あるいは、社会における脳のこの様な対応は脳の痴呆化の証であるのかも知れない。 社会機能を適正に保持する為のコントロール能力を失っているのかも知れない。 脳が自身の機能を思い出す事を切に願わずには居られない。
	物理世界のエントロピーが増大するように、今、善悪などの概念についても、そのエントロピーは増大の一途を辿っている。 それは概念の空洞化であり、精神世界に対する認識の整合性の崩壊でもある。 克夫に言わせるならば、それは世界崩壊の前触れであり、サタンの仕業である、と言うだろう。 彼はかつて、この事を「善は善であるように、醜は醜であるように、素直な認識をせねばならない」と、警告している。 生物は認識と情報の進化を求める存在であり、その為にエントロピーの増大に歯止めを掛ける存在でもある。 だが、神が営々として築き上げて来た精神の進化、すなわち、生物の進化は今、退化へと転換しかねぬ状況にあるのではないのか？ 新たな病原菌やヴィールスの蔓延を考慮するなら、また、雌雄のエントロピーが増大し始めている事を考慮するなら、 私のこの様な心配もあながち妄想とも言い切れぬ。 雌雄のエントロピーへの言及は、あるいは、差別である、などとして誤解をされるかも知れない。 人格への攻撃ではないのだが、果たして理解をされるだろうか？ いずれにしても、生物の論理から見るならば、これらのエントロピーの増大は生物と精神にとって、危険な兆候と言わざるを得ない。 それは情報の単純化を意味し、情報の単純化は生物世界と精神世界のエントロピーの増大を意味するからである。 そして、全てのエントロピーの増大は虚無へと通じる。ひょっとすると、これが克夫の言うサタンの陰謀の本体であるのかも知れない。 今の社会の状態は欲望がその目的から離れて、一人歩きをする偏執病であるようにも思われる。 経済システムのあり方を見ても、その事は容易に窺い知る事が出来る。 実は、社会が精神病者で、克夫はあるいは正常であったのかも 知れない。
			その為にサタンは彼の警告を封じる為に、表現の能力を奪い取り、精神病者として病院に閉じ込めたのではないのか？ 私はつい、その様な妄想にも捕らわれた。 だが、本当に妄想だろうか？やはり、サタンは実体であり、本当に世界を虚無へと 葬ろうとする意志を持つのかも知れない。いや、少なくとも、それは克夫の世界では真実だった。 そして、その様なサタンは私の世界、あるいは、あらゆる世界に侵入をする可能性を持つのかも知れない。 いや、必ず侵入をするように思われた。そして、そのサタンを滅ぼす事は不可能である。サタンが滅ぶと世界も滅ぶ。 克夫の論理が適正ならば、サタンは神の認識にとって、また、我々の認識にとって、すなわち、世界の存続にとって、 不可欠な存在であるからである。
	そう言えば、洋の東西を問わず、悪しき魂や魔物の類が聖者によって洞窟や壺などに閉じ込められる、と言う話が伝わっている。 つまり、何者といえども、サタンを滅ぼす事は不可能であり、閉じ込める以外、魔性を封じる手段はない。 人類は長い歴史を経る内に、経験的にその様な真実を知ったのである。 そして、私の世界に侵入をしたサタンを閉じ込めるのは克夫でも他の何者でも無く、私以外にはあり得ない。 それは既に克夫のサタンではなく、私のサタンであるからだった。 認識への意思、すなわち、神はより高次の認識を期待して、生物を生み出し、文明を産み落とした。 そして、それは大きな成功を収めたように思われる。だが、その様にして産まれた文明は今、個々人を器官の部品へと貶めている。 あらゆる認識は細切れと成り、整合性を失いつつある。サタンはその事を知っていたのではないのか？ 文明に於けるあらゆるエントロピーの増大を予見していたのかも知れない。克夫はその事をサタンが神に時間を止めさせる、 と言う表現で警告をしたように思われる。 中世のヨーロッパではしばしば、異端者の処刑や魔女狩りが行われた、と言う。それはサタンが人々の未知なるものへの恐れ、 異端なる者への憎悪をかき立て、神を装い、排斥的気分を煽り立てたからに他ならない。克夫なら、おそらく、その様に言うだろう。 他者を排斥する、と言う事は他者を認めぬ、と言う事である。だが、それは鬱積したフラストレーションのはけ口である、 などと言うような心理学的解釈に留められるべきでは決してない。この様な行為には、認識の単純化への意思が関わっている。 そして、それは、精神エネルギーのエントロピーを増大させ様とするサタンの意思に他ならない。世界は多様であるから世界なのである。
	だが、その様な魔女狩りに類した愚行は決して中世に限定をされる問題ではない。そして、今、我々もまた、 同じ事をしかねぬ状況に置かれつつある。いや、既にそれは始まっているのかも知れない。 そして、克夫はその様な傾向の犠牲者であるのかも知れない。 だが、それもこの世の理だろうか？ ある範囲で考えるなら、そうかも知れない。ただ、人間は事実を有りの儘に是認する受動的存在ではあり得ない。 神とサタンの戦いに傍観者で居る事は不可能である。あえて、傍観をするならば、それは世界を虚無へと導く。 我々は我々それぞれの世界において、自身のサタンと対峙しなければならない。 ただ、念の為に言っておくが、この戦いに対しては物理的な武器は無力である。 この戦いは自身の中に巣くうサタンとの戦いである事を認識しなくては為らない。そして、閉じ込める場所は自身の心に他ならない。
	それにしても、認識と言うものの背後には、想像を絶する秘密が隠されている。克夫は自らの精神性を高めようと、世界への 整合性ある認識を欲したが、もし、彼の言うサタンの妨害がなかったならば、彼はあれほどの認識に辿り着く事が出来ただろうか？ おそらく、日々の生活に埋没し、普通の人生を送っただろう。そして、おそらく無意識にサタンとの妥協をしたのに違いなかった。 皮肉な事だが、サタンの執拗な妨害が彼の認識を育てたらしい。まさにサタンは認識にとって、必要不可欠な存在だった。 だが、彼はそれで満足して死んだのだろうか？ 彼はサタンの攻撃に苦しみながらも、世界を見、神とサタンを認識しつつ、この世を去った。 その事はあの手紙の内容からも窺い知れる。もし、サタンの意思が虚無にあるなら、これは彼がサタンに勝った事を意味するよう に思われる。少なくとも、サタンに操られた人々に比べるならば、それは幸いであったのかも知れない。 だが、彼も人の子には違いない。そして、本人も、自分は世俗的な人間である、と言っていた。 そして、彼の焦燥感には、認識をされる事への飢餓感もあったようにも思われる。 確かに彼は整合性のある認識を得、 その事については一応の満足はしたのだろう。だが、世界は認識の主体とその対象から成り立っている。 つまり、彼はオブジェクトとしての自分には満足出来なかったのではないのだろうか？
				おそらく、彼はその様な飢餓感には気付いていない。だが、彼の言う認識への意思は世界がサブジェクトとオブジェクトで成り立つ以上、 おそらく認識をされようとする意思と一対なのである。 あるいは、彼の魂は死に切れず、この世を彷徨っているのだろうか？世俗的恨みを抱きつつ、幽霊と成り、 祟りを狙っているのだろうか？ 私には、判断もしかねるが、彼の予言と現実との符合を見るならば、 彼のサタンが現実世界に侵入をした事は確かであるように思われる。そして、それを封じるものは私しかない。 だが、私は果たして、サタンの誘惑に勝てるのだろうか？何故かは知らぬが、虚無の匂いがふっとした。
目次
	その一　狂気の手紙 　　　その二　克夫の生い立ち 　　　その三　奇縁 　　　その四　克夫の能力 　　　その五　ライフワーク
	その六　迷える魂 　　　　　その七　サタンの陰謀 　　　　　その八　認識というもののミステリー
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